Once Bitten; Twice Shy

It's not that I haven't admitted to it; it's just that I'm not enjoying my reaction so far to it.

I suspected at 3 weeks; had a dating scan at 6 weeks and am now nearly 10 weeks pregnant. Yeah!

Now... If only I could stop the feelings of apprehension. If only I could stop the dreams. If only I could stop checking for bleeding every hour. If only I could get past the fear and accept that this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach is just pregnancy nerves, bloating and constipation. If only I could let myself enjoy this time of my life.

Is it a matter of letting go of the past? Or is it a matter of embracing what has been to fully appreciate what is now?

*sigh* one day at a time. Looking at old photos helps. I'll make it to this again, I'm sure ...I think.

But either way I already have a greater appreciation of how truly blessed I am. Fear or no fear - that has to be a good thing.

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Pop Pop Pop

Caramel Popcorn - devil's food, I'm sure. I am addicted to this stuff. Once in a while, I buy that awful stuff from the supermarket and binge on it. Sadly (or thankfully - I don't know!!), I seem to be the only one in the family to love this stuff. I thought I would try to make some at home. So...

I made a batch on Tuesday night - one jar full plus 4 and a 1/2 brown bags full. I gave away one bag to a neighbour. I gave the 1/2 bag to my husband for work. And I "shared" (as in I think I ate the lion's share of it) one bag with some friends who came over on Wednesday. I was surfing Pinterest last night. And on Thursday morning, I wake up and this is what I'm left with...
Before the photo shoot...

After the photo shoot (I took about 3 photos!!)...

And that's it - no more after this jar is emptied!!
On another note, I had a go at creating "art". Art, as in something to hang and display. What do you think? The inspiration cam…

Monkey See; Monkey Do

I was just monkeying around the kitchen...
I had some dough leftover from baking dinner rolls and cinnamon buns (yeah - it was alot of dough!) and I had seen this idea from the Pioneer Woman previously. Cinnamon, butter, sugar and a dash of sweetened condensed milk - yes please!!! Ok, so maybe, just maybe, I accidentally on purpose put some dough aside just so I could indulge in this .... well, indulgence.
And what an indulgence - worse still, an easy indulgence as I already had the dough. Caramelised cinnamon sugar with a bit of bread covered with sweetened condensed milk. I don't think I really need to say more.

And, in honour of Father's Day, we had special "WE heart DADDY" pancakes... ok ok - I ran out of time, energy and ideas this year. (Note to self - try harder next year!)

Don't mock the banana - at $12.99/kg this is a real treat. Unfortunately Daddy was too slow and Little Miss M took it and ate it. It might be Father's Day, but "you snooze…

Birthdays, Dishes and Blueberry Custard Pie... Oh My!

Back to front... let's start with Blueberry Custard Pie.

A buttery homemade pie crust, encompassing a custardy blueberry filling; topped with a streusel topping. Once the pie crust has been made (which can done in advance) then this pie comes together quicker than you can say "a buncha munchy crunchy carrots" (Octonauts, anyone?).

This pie is awesome straight out of the oven, served with a scoop vanilla ice-cream, tea and Mark Harmon in bed, or warmed in the microwave served with a dollop of cream for breakfast the next day. But better with Mark Harmon.

I have written about this already... actually almost a year ago today! But I think it's worth writing about again.

My little ones are growing up quickly. Besides all the exasperated sighs, the telling off, rule after rule after rule, we're doing aw-right. I have been having more energy, am more organised, and more open to laughing with the girls. Something recently just clicked with me. And, if the picture…

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