Once Bitten; Twice Shy

It's not that I haven't admitted to it; it's just that I'm not enjoying my reaction so far to it.

I suspected at 3 weeks; had a dating scan at 6 weeks and am now nearly 10 weeks pregnant. Yeah!

Now... If only I could stop the feelings of apprehension. If only I could stop the dreams. If only I could stop checking for bleeding every hour. If only I could get past the fear and accept that this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach is just pregnancy nerves, bloating and constipation. If only I could let myself enjoy this time of my life.

Is it a matter of letting go of the past? Or is it a matter of embracing what has been to fully appreciate what is now?

*sigh* one day at a time. Looking at old photos helps. I'll make it to this again, I'm sure ...I think.

But either way I already have a greater appreciation of how truly blessed I am. Fear or no fear - that has to be a good thing.

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Visions, Goals, Plans... Oh My

I'm a sucker. And I've got an addictive personality. And I rationalise and justify everything I do. So, it's never a good idea for me to pick up a new hobby... aka addiction... unless it's truly good for me.

I picked up the capsule wardrobe thing... good.

I picked up the skincare/makeup thing... not so good ($$$).

I latched onto the no shampoo thing... good.

And now I'm onto the Kikki K thing... so NOT good.

I'm into it. So so so into it. My life can be soooo much better with the help of stationary and vision boards and stickers and pens and yep... workshops.

It's mid-year and I'm goal setting. I've never been a believer in the New Year's Resolution movement, but mid-year goal setting... I'm all over that like a rash, baby.

I've "invested" in a planner so that I can live each day with purpose.

I've "invested" in a vision board so that I can keep motivated.

And I've attended a Goals Workshop so that I can…

Happy Birthday Little Miss M

I asked Little Miss M - Do you want to have your birthday at a play centre and you can invite lots of friends, or do you want me to plan an at-home party with just a few friends?

After all the fun that she had been having at her friends parties being held at a play centre, I was very surprised when Little Miss M opted for an at-home party. Apparently, I'm loved because I plan the birthdays.

And so a birthday party was planned... A FURBY PARTY!! Dah-Noh-Lah! Party party!!

We had games...

A photo booth with props... (and we printed out the photos for the guests to take home)

We had cake...

And we sent the party guests home with a furby key chain, a photo from the photo booth and some homemade love...

Yes, I had to take a few days off from work to get everything done.
Yes, the Furby cake was filled with smarties and m&m's (not sure why we don't have a picture of it). And I really don't want to think of how much butter was used to make the cake and the frosting!!
Y…

Growing up; growing together

My little girls are growing up.They’re catching up with each other, and then they’re racing away as they go through their developmental growth spurts.But whatever the case, they are growing together.And it’s the joy of my life.You know that feeling?When you’re just sitting there, watching, enjoying, with a goofy smile on your face.Yeah – that feeling.It’s awesome.

One day, after Little Miss M and Dear Husband had already left for the day, I was lounging around in bed – ok, I was wallowing in self-pity over my head cold.Before he left, I think Dear Husband had a quiet word to the two little one to let me rest.
And so they did.I heard some shuffling.I heard some whispering.I heard some furniture being moved around.I heard some “help please Ditse”.I heard some “Ssshhh, mama’s sleeping.”
Of course, who can resist that?I had to get up to see what was going on.And this is what I saw…

Little Miss Independence and Little Miss Independence-in-training. Gee willie winkies – they’re clever, huh?

Ag May ...

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